If at all...

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” 

I've often found myself and others waywardly argue whether change is for the better or the worse. "I don't like changes. But some things ought to change, for the better" - a frequently used phrase by myself. Being someone who doesn't like settling into a new environment automatically labels me as unsupportive of change. However, circumstances, people, and most importantly, the binding force in this world: time - changes. Change is inevitable.

The argument whether change is for the better or worse has seemed inconclusive so far. Having said that, if you and/or I choose to change, it is often the need of the hour. It may be a circumstantial adaption. It may be a dire need, if nothing greater. Why would change occur at all if it wasn't to smoothen perceptual ease?

Ten years ago, I believed, people who make mistakes, forgive them anyway. Those who apologise, deserve a second or  in some cases, a third chance. Whereas, today, my thoughts are contrary to the foregoing. I have come down to believe that mistakes should be forgiven but not forgotten. Those who seek apology should be given no more than a second chance. Those who try to use you to their advantage need a lesson. Those who give you shit, return the favour with bullshit. Undoubtedly enough, this is a change. Most likely, for the better. 

In addition, ten years down the road, I might ponder, "why did I do, what I did? Why was I the way I was? What caused this to be this way? If I hadn't done this, this wouldn't have happened". All baseless. I, thereafter, make it a point to BELIEVE that what I did then was what the best suited course of action was. I accustomed to the moving times, the change, and all that was needed.

Our experiences: good and bad, relationships, circumstances, attitudes, treatments, judgements all eventually factor towards 'change'. If it wasn't for the better, it wouldn't just happen.

Let thoughts enter. Let them seep. Let change come. If you can't change it, change the way you think about it.

Time's ticking!

With you alone, even your elder sister could behave like a baby

The soul of the deceased speaking from the skies. The divine voice when reaches the ears makes an impact:

On my encounter with God, He asked me my last wish. With that, the most beautiful vacation flashed before me. With eyes shut and wrapped in the cover of my own self, I dashed beside you, my sister. You were by then, in a state of quiescence. Outside the window, the sky was dark and lonely, yet the stars were lusturous making themself eminent.The clouds had clumped together. The silver gleam of the moon lightened the skies beautifully in its own way undettered by the blockade the lumped cloud had tried to cause. Sparkles of which entered your room focusing only on your hands that clutched my picture tightly. However, my short visit was meant to do nothing but unmask the reality. While you emerged in slumber, I filled the spaces between your fingers. Sister, seeing you in despair hurt my soul while I sleep peacefully in the company of angels sent by the Creator to protect me. What was the difference in your present state and mine? If only humans ever pondered enough, death was a poetic or euphemistic expression for a long deep sleep. Apparently, it may be a harsh reality - the totality of facts as they are independent of human awareness of them.

"I am living my life after death", I whispered in your ear. Yes...a life that is beyond the worldly affairs and ignorance from bliss. The void I left you with shall overcome one day, but you got to hold strong. My lord sees the agony you go through every day and I pray to Him to give you never ending strength and devotion towards piety. You look forward to see me in your dreams...but dear sister, it is actually me who is covering every mile of the journey to begin an uninterrupted and eternal chapter with you and our family; a test that we all are subject to, sooner or later. The remarkable self-control you exercise each day aids as a bridge to my celestial city. The good deeds you perform to benefit me make me rise like a shining star, with utmost clarity, ruling over the galaxies and the universe. Sister, I am setting on a path which is toughest; but attainment of it shall lead me to an impregnable state of eternal well being and fulfillment of on-going desires. My demise is manifested by the permanent cessation of vital organic functions, including the absence of my heartbeat. However, my spiritual existance is active.The termination of my life has not obstructed what the soul needs and responds to. The passion, sentiment and emotion will always be alive. Every day I am watching you. I am all around you...in the winds that blow, the breeze that contacts your body upon it's arrival. My existance is now magical. With utter provocation, I need you to experience my occurance in everything that nature poses. The rain drops that fall hitting the ground with pressure, the thunder and the lightning - noises that take you over are signs from the Almighty. At all times, I shall stay within your proximity in various forms such as the seasons that you live - summer, spring, winter and autumn. The mountains that stand erect, the trees planted that give you shade, the flowers that blossom, the butterflies that add beauty to your surroundings and the splashing of high waves in seas and oceans that battle as they reach the shore, back and forth. Nature is my pervasive ubiquity. Till your last breath, I will continue to be your shadow. Inside out should my scent beset you penetrating in your heart and mind. Do not live without me - life has not asked you for that. Exhibit calm endurance of pain - absence of my physical companionship with hope and patience.

My dear sister... Paradise fills every inch of my spirit. The realities are far more extravagant. They hold splendor, glory and radiance. Sorcery powers are its daily routines. Powers of the All-knowing master impecabbly bridge all the emptiness a soul may face. Real life such as this is where I shall meet you. That day is not far when you hold me tight and we shall cuddle.

I still love and miss you, probably more than you do? Life without you is not easy. But my efforts towards the hereafter are relentless that do not weigh me down. For with me alone, you will continue to behave like a baby. For you are my soul-mate, partner, significant other, better half, life saver, tower of strength, twin flame... my sister. For I grew up in your arms, and sought refuge in you. I continually remininsce over the times we had. Hold strong sister & keep walking. 

Your most precious & awaited,

Your sister

Teri Yaad Saath Hai- Rahat Fateh Ali: www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhKwyPDZO0g

The brightness of the sun lights my way as I fly ahead